Monday, August 8, 2011
Is it normal to hate your mother this much?
I have a lot of resentment towards my mother. I had ADD and attention issues when i was younger, and was never able to make friends. I am a junior in high school, and have NEVER been invited to one sweet sixteen (even though litterally the whole grade was invited to a couple of them). My mother has told me that i am a f****g weirdo several times, if not she just tells me that i am plain weird. She is so darn cheap as well. Everybody that i know, my aunts (her sisters) think that some desinger fashions are worth it, but my mother is flat out against them it seems. (I have to use gift cards and my own money to buy what i want). She has horrible, cheap taste. Yet, my mother wants me to dress like everybody else (and she seems to think it will solve my problems). I am kind of fat (even though i have a "perfect" BMI), and i just feel like it is her fault that i look the way i do. She is OBSESSED with cooking, and totally disregards fat content, calories, etc. My father is a normal weight, but has high cholesterol, and i feel it is her fault (b/c she gives him creamy dishes, pizza, and salami). She is so fat herself, and since menopause she is so overweight, but not obese. My mother has no chin, and a blubbery neck. Her weight fills me w/ rage, because when she was my age she was less than 100 lbs and 3 inches taller than me, which means i will probably be bigger than that at her age. My mother is preoccupied with this whole "healthy body image" crap. She is so ignorant, and doesnt know jack about nutrition, and tries to impose her delusional view on me. She asked if i wanted her to buy me these lean cuisine meals, and i told her off. I said you dont know sh***t about nutrition, and no way would i eat those salt & perservative laden meals. She restricts me, and will not let me do anything or spend my money. She will not let me go surfing b/c she says i am "uncoordinated." I feel so trapped with her. Everytime she is in my prescence, i curse under my breath. If it wasnt for the law, i would slit this miserly bovine's throat w/o a doubt. Is it normal to hate your mother this much? Also, why do you think i have so much resentment towards her (even though i have a wonderful relationship w/ my father)?
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